struggling
by Bella Rum
No, ma’am. I cannot shake this awful thing that holds me in its grip. I landed back in the hospital yesterday, received another script, breathing treatment, tests to make sure there are no blood clots in my lungs, etc. They found that the infection (pneumonia) is improving, but I don’t feel better. Why? They don’t know; I don’t know. I am loath to harangue you with such things, but that’s my story, Morning Glory.
I do a little something towards making Christmas each day. Christmas doesn’t just happen. It must be made, but you already know this. I mailed a few cards and wrapped the kids’ presents. H will do the food shopping for me. I’m not sure how much cooking I’ll manage, but I’ll do a little. My DIL is a terrific cook and doesn’t mind skittering around my kitchen.
When I tell you that things are good, I mean it. Things are more than good, they are grand. Barring the odd ear infection or persistent cough from this one or that one, we are all healthy. We can touch base with each other and have reasonable expectation of seeing one another soon. While there are no guarantees, there seems no downside to hoping for many years of the same. And big news! The littlest one took her first step in our house a few weeks ago. This is the first grandchild to do so because we’ve always lived so far apart. The other two took their first steps far away from us.
For those who’ve lost so much, this is not an easy season. As we all struggle for perspective, I wish you and yours a healthy, happy and safe holiday season.
Take care and get well soon! We are striving for a low-key holiday this year. Just glad we are all here. Yahoo for first steps!
Low-key sounds wonderful.
Oh, gosh darn it. I was hoping you’d be feeling downright spiffy by this time. Well, your approach is a good one. A little task here, a little task there. After all, there are rumors that Christmas can be had without any of the trappings – although a little trapping is good. That’s why I stuck decorations around my friend’s hospital room. Ten bucks, a roll of scotch tape, and it’s all good.
Of course, it’s easier without children around. Children find it hard to be philosophical about Christmas, which is as it should be.
I managed to get my parcels mailed in a manner timely enough that they’ll arrive before Christmas. I could that a great victory. May you have many such victories in the days to come!
And hooray for first steps! This living close to one another really is the best, isn’t it?
So sorry you’re still sick! It sounds like your Christmas will be nice in spite of it. I never know what ours will be like because we always go to NC & are a bit at the mercy of our relatives. Sigh.
Dear Bella, this is a beautiful and poignant post — you are so positive amidst sickness and lack of info. well, all my best thoughts will be with you for a good and full recovery and enough energy to enjoy the holiday with your wonderful family. It’s good to know they will be a wonderful help. I have no good excuse for being a slacker elf this year, but it will come and so now I’m just trying to be gentle with myself and do what I can as well as I can. A lot of folks I know are in the same bit, but they don’t have hospital and sick to deal with.
So I send you extra special greetings for healing and happiness this Christmas. Enjoy your brood!
Merry Christmas, Bella. I’m glad that things are good, but really am sorry you don’t feel well. Limitations can be frustrating. On a totally superficial note, I love this blog format, with the posts in the center. Emily Freeman’s Chatting at the Sky blog is like that, and I’ve been tempted to do the same. So if I copy you, I’ll give you credit for reminding me it’s something I wanted to do!
Hugs to you! take care of yourself, take it easy and let the other people do the work! I hope you’re feeling better soon, please be careful!
I have been sick at Christmas before and it’s no fun. So I hope you start feeling better soon, and that the magic of this season will work it’s good for you!
Have a very Merry Christmas, Bella. The comments about your grandchildren are so precious.
I hope you’re feeling well enough to enjoy them.